In is officially 2022.
My theme this year is "it does not have to be prefect" which is part of a long quote from the 100th ep of Legends of Tomorrow. In past years I have had themes such as "Drink the tea, Burn the Candles, Use the lotion" or "Belonging, Boldness, and Joy"
My "star word" is "Look". A pastor friend had drawn "star words" for people for several years now. In the past I have gotten Clarity and Prepare. Since this years DePaul Pop Culture conference is on Sherlock I am taking "look" to mean I really have to observe my inner and outer world.
My focus is being more present. And this is where the idea that change is challenging is highlighted for me. I found especially towards the end of 2021 I was in the habit of "procrastination productivity" (Thank you "Make Your Dame Bed" podcast for this term)
I was doing things just to tick off to-dos from my list, or so I could say I did x number of y thing this year. Or again in the words of legends of tomorrow I realized I need to focus on the "And having a hell of a good time doing it." part of the equation.
As I have been processing how I can be more present (trying not to do a million things at one time, for example enjoying breakfast not eating while checking emails and listening to a podcast all at the same time) I have come to realize just how much I was using "busyness" to fill my days, and busyness that was just busyness not busyness that was really meaningful or purposeful.
But moving from busyness to meaningfulness is hard!!! This also ties into the book I have read as my last book every year for the past 5-6 years. The book is "Hell Yes" and reminds us that if activities are not "Hell Yes" activities they are "Hell No" activities which gets rid of a lot of the gray messy hard to choose stuff.
So one way to see the challenges I am experiencing right now is I know when tasks are not "Hell Yes" activities in a particular moment (for example if I am reading or listening to something and realize I have zoned out and don't know what I was reading or what was said it is a good sign it is not a "Hell Yes" right now) but in those moments I am not sure what a "Hell Yes" activity would be.
So as I sit with "it does not have to be perfect" I find I am often sitting in uncomfortableness because I am so used to staying busy. My challenge is finding meaningful and purpose filled activities to fill my days that I can be proud of in say a years time
For example I know deleting x email is sometimes important but never will be meaningful and even doing things I enjoy like reading is not meaningful if I am reading just to say I read x books and not because I really want to read the books. I am also seeing how this "procrastination productivity" was hurting my mental health.
The New Year brought up some emotions and feelings for me because I was working so hard to accomplish things before the end of the year that when it was a new year I felt a bit lost or unmoored. It was a new year but I did not have any major new plans. It was a new year but I felt a little like I was just starting a time loop once again.
I am trying to process and really think about what I want from 2022. How not to get stuck in busyness for the sake of busyness, as well as what I can do in those moments to feel good about myself. I am finding it is much more challenging than simply picking my theme and going full speed ahead with in. But then we all know all change is hard and we need to be gentle on ourselves as we determine what we want tomorrow to look like.
And this post does not have any magic this is how to solve all your problems magic formula but I hope it is a reminder that all change is challenging, so if you find you are struggling with resolutions or themes or "star words" or goals or wishes or hopes for the new year you are not alone. You are never alone. Together we will figure this all out. I will leave you with my my 2022 New Years message. Have a wonderful 2022.
Another new year is before us
And we don’t know what it will look like
What challenges we will face, What amazingness we will achieve
What timelines or multiverses will go wibbly wobbly
So we should focus on what matters
Moments where (we are) doing what (we) need to do
to make sure that (we) vibrate at the right frequency …
things that are small, doable, affordable, and that nourish (us). (1)
You won’t be doing it alone.
We are all just trying to figure out this being human thing together.
It’s not always going to be easy.
And you know sometimes you’ll feel like you’re out of your mind
Or that the darkness is too much to bear.
But it’s worth fighting the darkness to discover who you really are.
And not just for yourself.
So you can create a better world for everyone.
Now, you’re gonna make some mistakes.
There’s no formula to guide the way.
No destiny to surrender to.
It’s not about being perfect.
It’s about doing what you know is right.
And having a hell of a good time doing it.
That’s what it means to be alive.
And to be a Legend.
Welcome to the team. (2)
Make the plan, Execute the plan,
Expect the plan to go off the rails,
Throw away the plan. (3)
*quietly confident in the manifold gifts you possess,
both known and unknown to you*
Right behind you.
You got this. (4)
Happy New Year
1.Wentworth Miller | Full Q&A | Oxford Union Society
2.DC's Legends of Tomorrow - WVRDR_ERROR_100
3.Leonard Snart from The Flash - Infantino Street
4.Lin- Manuel Miranda Tweets
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