Sunday, September 24, 2017

James Tiptree Jr. and the Biographies we Read

Thanks to Goodreads algorithm I recently read a very interesting biography: James Tiptree Jr. The Double Life of Alice B. Sheldon by Julie Phillips



I was amazed at all the tangible connections I found to my own life and experiences (Chicago, Africa, DC, American University, Science Fiction, Writing under a pen name, Imposter syndrome .....)

And I realized that while I read biographies regularly Tiptree was one of the first I have read of an individual in the science fiction community.

For example, my last dozen Biographies/Autobiographies before Tiptree happened to be (in reverse chronological order):

1. Strange Fruit, Volume 1: Uncelebrated Narratives From Black History by Joel Christain Gill
2. Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic by Alison Bechdel
3. Are You My Mother? by Alison Bechdel
4. My Beloved World by Sonia Sotomayor
5. Monsieur D'eon Is A Woman: A Tale Of Political Intrigue And Sexual Masquerade by Gary Kates
6. William Henry Harrison by Gail Collins
7. Secret Historian: The Life and Times of Samuel Steward, Professor, Tattoo Artist, and Sexual Renegade by Justin Spring
8. Lafayette in the Somewhat United States by Sarah Vowell
9. Washington: A Life by Ron Chernow
10. Alexander Hamilton by Ron Chernow
11. Beyond Paradise: The Life of Ramon Novarro by Andre Soares
12. Nellie Bly: Daredevil, Reporter, Feminist by Brooke Kroeger

As I look over this list I discover these biographies are not set in my own personal experience. Which is wonderful. That is the point of reading and telling tales to experience things outside your own personal experience.

But I enjoyed Tiptree's biography because I kept thinking:
I know that place
I know that organization
I know of that person
I know that experience
I know that doubt
So for the next few biographies, I hope to read about modern-day science fiction and fantasy authors, with a focus on women, to see how they respond to the common challenges of writing and particular challenges of being women facing those challenges.




Sunday, May 7, 2017

DePaul Pop Culture Conference: Harry Potter

This year's Depaul Pop Culture Conference spotlighted Harry Potter. It was another fascinating conference filled with great conversations and analyse.

My own complex relationship with Harry Potter:

After attending this conference I have been thinking about my own relationship with the texts. Growing up I never read HP, for a variety of reasons including the fact that the concept of "Boy finds out they are magical, and goes to magic school" was not original (and so I did not really understand the fuss). In addition, HP became so popular with my peers that became uncool in my mind. I liked the idea of Harry Potter because it got so many kids reading and I was all for that but I was not particularly interested in reading them myself.

My earliest introduction to HP was probably through fanfiction. Then in my late twenties I had a free month and read all 7 books before the first movie of the last book came out so I would know what was happening since my roommates were going to a midnight screening.

This was probably not the best way to enjoy the series and I struggled to connect with Harry or the rest of the Trio. There is quite a bit of teenage angst in the series which when binged really gets to be very tiresome. For me, I connected with Snape as a character the best and felt that I was Luna off in her own amazing world and not caring too much what others thought.

This personal background with the texts was highlighted for me because for many of the attendees the trio had become their friends, the characters they grew up with (and for many literally grew up with reading a book a year as they were published).

My conference experience in review:

I started the day with the 2nd half of the Panel The Harry Potter Alliance, Fan Activism, and Stories of Social Change. 

There was a great conversation about the use of Metaphors in Activism. The group discussed how Simplified metaphors used as shortcuts don't open doors/invite others to join the conversation. It was then proposed that maybe Negative metaphors (Ex comparisons to Vortamont, Umbridge etc) close the doors of conversation whereas positive metaphors (Ex comparisons to the strengths of the different houses, patronises etc) can open doors of communication and connection.

Next was A day at Hogwarts: "Magical Menagerie" and "L.O.W's (Levels of Ordinary Wizarding" with Jennifer Jones where were a couple of fun activities, a quiz, a scavenger hunt, and making creatures. 


Next was a fascinating Academic Keynote:

"Defending Tom Riddle: The Failure of Albus Dumbledore" by Dr. Christopher Bell. 

Dr Bell started with the idea: 
It is less why Tom Riddle became a mass murder (aka Vortamont) as for why it took so long. 

He explained how in western culture the "Moral Institution" which keeps our "Primal Self" in check is "Achievement" and when opportunity is unevenly distributed this leads to "STRAIN" which leads to one of two main responses a) Harm yourself, b) Harm everyone else. (Many of these terms are based on another classical thinker who I did not write down the name of my apologies) 

He also stated that Wizarding Society is militarised distopia (filled with inequality, exclusion, exploitation, and repression where everyone has weapons (wands)). I found this a very interesting view of the Wizarding Society and for me provides context to why the action of HP occurs.

Dr Bell went on to say that Tom Riddle showed signs of having Reactive Attachment Disorder which leads to Moral Disengagement  (From either an individual's conduct, the effects of the conduct, or the victims of the conduct). And how our "Monkey Sphere" (the number of individuals we can keep in our minds and care about before they become things) for most people is somewhere around 37 for Vortamont this was 3 (Himself, Bellatrix, and Nagini)

He also stated Dumbedore misses the "point of intervention" or the moment things could be different when Tom Riddle first comes to Hogwarts and therefore through unintentional neglect is responsible to what Tom Riddle became. And seems to recognise this by doing the absolute opposite with Harry Potter who had a similar horrible childhood as Tom Riddle.

Dr Bell also presented the interesting idea that students are only put in Gryffindor if they are asked. Asking is their first act of courage. He suggested that the trio all belonged in different houses if not for the fact they wanted to be Gryffindor. Hermine = Ravenclaw, Harry = Slytherin, Ron = Hufflepuff

Next was a panel on Queer Readings of Harry Potter where the lack of LGBTI representation in Harry Potter was focused on. As was stated Fandom is not a Substitute for Canon and while within fanfiction there is queer representation it is a serious problem that it is not included in the text. Out of 772 named characters, only one is gay (Dumbledore) and that was something retcon in after all the books were written. 

The fact this was retconed in upset many because there was a feeling if this was how JK Rolins saw the character there should have been some passing reference included in the text. Also, it was seen as a missed opportunity because of how many characters are referenced in relationship to kissing someone in the text and how simple it would have been to have a few of those background characters be LGBT. There were also strong feelings around the fact that in the end of the story absolutely everyone is paired up with someone and off having kids. There was a feeling that while many did not trust JKR to have written LGBT characters well they still would have preferred if she had tried. 

Next was the Keynote: Alanna Bennett which for me personally felt different from Keynotes in the past mainly due to this year being based on a book series and therefore not providing the opportunity for a discussion of behind the scenes or how the writing process of the text goes. 

Alanna Bennett did discuss a bit about the phenomena of fandom coming up with a concept and it becoming fandom cannon. And how moving forward she hopes there can be a better understanding between Cannon and Fans. And that Cannon can learn from the Fans and the Fans responses.

(Again for me this highlighted the different responses to different forms of media, as a book series which is complete, JKR has much less opportunity to incorporate fandom. A TV show can add a throwaway line which confirms a theory or incorporate fans and fandom in some way whereas JKR can only tweet hay I like that idea. There is some wiggle room in the various spin-offs/prequels she is creating but it still more static)

Next was Harry Potter and the Infinite Syllabus: How Harry Potter has shaped education which showcased how different educators used the Harry Potter text working with elementary school aged children to multiple frameworks used with University Students (Such as a Hero's Journey, as literature, as sociology). There were some fun examples of student created projects.

Finally was The Religous Potter: Religious, Ethics, and Meaning in Harry Potter which was interesting but was more high-level Religion and philosophy. There was a discussion of how different faith traditions responded differently to HP depending on whether they used a Descriptive or prescriptive lens. 
I also picked up a copy of Time Lords & Tribbles, Winchesters & Muggles edited by Paul Booth which covers the past 5 years of The DePaul Pop Culture Conference. I can't beilve it has been 5 years nor that I have attended since the beginning. I already learned from the intro that the original Doctor Who conference was going to be a one-off event, I am glad it has changed and continues to this day.
I am really excited to read more and that will be a later post :) 




Monday, April 24, 2017

C2E2 My Day 3 in Review

Sunday was Day 3 of C2E2. It was a bit of a calmer day. I went as the Ohila the High Priestess of the Sisterhood of Karn. Though many people thought I was a wizard from Harry Potter instead which was fine. Personally, I have very flexible in my cosplay. I can be whoever you think I look like.



It was interesting though because I realised this is one of the very few female characters I cosplay as. For me, it is more an issue of male characters having more clothing bits in common. You have one men's shirt and a jacket or two and you are all set to play 1/2 of all male characters.

Sunday ("Kids Day") highlighted for me the fact that there are more characters for both women and girls to play than ever before. There were many very cute Rey(s) and Wonder Women(s) and this year many wonderful Moana(s).

I went to a few panels but nothing really stood out to comment about here.

Random Highlights From day:

  • Going and getting Robbie Thompson to actually sign my Tardis Autograph book. 
    • So now with Robbie Thompson, in addition to Niel Gaiman, my book has 2/5 of my current "Best of Writer's Best of Dreamers" So Graham Moore, Lin-Manual Miranda and Benjamin Alire Saenz some day you will join them. :) 
  • Being hit in the Face by Castiel's wings. 
    • I was at the SPN fan panel and a cosplayer came in with a costume which included fully extended wings for Castiel which hit me in the face. They were soft and I think it is a great story lol

Sunday was a good day for books. I got 9. Some new releases, some used. Many were from an organisation called The Science Fiction Outreach Program. 

Each came with a bookmark highlighting upcoming Science fiction conventions (And completely randomly the first listed is in Puerto Rico an area I am hyper-focused on right now and the second is Finland which is where my mom once taught nursery school. Another it's another it's a small world moment). 

The fun thing is I will read these books and share with family or with the free take a book library at the social service centre at the organization my roommate works for. 

Saturday, April 22, 2017

C2E2 My Day 2 In Review

Another good day at C2E2. Today I went as The Doctor. I saw a bunch of Fun Cosplay including a wonderful Moana and a gorgeous Te Fiti and a giant HeiHei. Another random highlight was when I saw someone with an SPN bag and I said great bag and she actually gave me a pin which is pretty amazing.


So the Panel I was planning on starting with today filled up so I went to an alternative which was cool. Glad the universe pushed me into going. It was called Gender Identity: Understanding Through Art. I love the below slide they have which explores some of the complexity around these issues. I love how both Aces and Aros are included.



The takeaway was a searching for characters who are non-gender normative and have unrelated superpowers Ex Someone who is trans who happens to be able to create fireballs instead of be a shapeshifter. Like around all issues of including some comics do it well, especially those with non-gender normative individuals on their staffs, and some don't. A bunch of recommendations were given one which stood out was a Web Comic Oh Human Star (http://ohumanstar.com/comic/chapter-1-title-page/) which deals with Transgender issues with the added wrinkle of what does it mean to be transgender when you are an android. Look forward to checking it out. 

Also, it was pointed out that as writers we will fail and in those cases, we need to listen to the criticism and apology and do better in the future. 

Next up was a panel on Queer Women Making Comics. A few takeaways when writing about communities root it in lived experience to keep from creating stereotypes, and never speak for the whole community, Also readers seek interesting storylines, not tokenism.  

I also saw the Evanna Lynch (Luna Lovegood) Panel. She discussed how she felt imposter syndrome when she started in the films. That acting is not about Nailing it but playing it. As she said "Luna teaches you don't have to belong, just be you" and that her favorite line to say was a line to Harry "You are just as sane as I am". 

My last panel of the day was The Value of Mental Illness: Finding Resilience in Pain which ended up being completely full. I was one of the last people to sneak in. There were a few people who are involved with a site called "Geek Therapy" which I will have to check out. Robbie Thompson also was included on the panel for his work on "Silk" which was great. 

Superheroes and the trama of their origin stories were discussed and how their experiences can be used to understand other mental health issues ex Spiderman's spider sense is like Anxiety. There was also a lot of discussion around Therapy. "Silk" was praised because it showed an honest portrayal of the process which is therapy. 

There was talk about finding power in what you are scared of. Like superheroes when we deal with our Mental Illness we need to remember we can't do this alone, we need support systems, and how it is easier once we share our secrets. Therapy was shared to be a process of learning to trust others and yourself. It is not easy to share your experiences but it is important.  There was also a suggestion that individuals can bring characters to Therapy Today I feel like this character.... Also, it was stressed while it is vital to provide space for others you can't push someone if they are not ready, You can't make people do what they are not ready to do.

Finally, I got up the nerve to actually go over to Robbie Thompson's Table and chat a while and ask a few questions. He was amazing and he gave me an autographed copy of his copy Venom. So Now I have two autographs. (One from an SPN Conference 2 years ago). And he even liked my tweet.


I am glad I got up the courage to go over and say Hi and not just watch from across the room. :)

Today's Book Total:  5 Books cover value $48

Today I also bought a comic book. Love is Love which is the multi-author comic creator response to Orlando whose profits goes to Equality Florida. I started to read and of course started to get teary eyed.

Friday, April 21, 2017

C2E2 My Day 1 In Review


Today was the first day of C2E2 (or The Chicago Comic and Entertainment Expo so you can understand why everyone calls it C2E2 instead :) )

This year I am tackling C2E2 a bit differently than in the past: I'm just enjoying it and stressing less about what panel's I "should"go to and focusing on just those I want to or feel up too. I don't have to go to a million panels to make C2E2 worthwhile. Here are the highlights from today.

Today my cosplay was Alexandar Hamilton which was fun.


"Are You Iron Man Sir?" (1)



Are you "One Punch Man" Sir (2)


"There is a million things I have not done but just you wait, just you wait"

My first panel was probably the highlight of the day. It was the Will Wheaton Spotlight.

Now I have to admit going in my familiarity with Will was very sketchy:

  1. A vague idea he was one of those online people who says wise things
  2. A vague connection to TNG (The Next Generation)
  3. Knowing he is friends with Felicia Day and remembering they had done some project together
Well, he was amazing. Super friendly and super kind. 

I loved his response to a comment, (and the applause which followed), from a fan who said that his openness about his own mental health challenges encourages them with theirs:
"You hear that clapping, remember that. It (Mental Illness) often can make you feel like you are all alone but this is proof you never are" 
(I find it simply amazing how many of us collectively struggle with mental health issues and when I just now looked up Will's story I found this clip of him which I would recommend: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K6ACzT6PCDw.)

I also loved his highlighting of the fact:
"Being a nerd is not about what you love it is about how you love"
And his love of fandom itself was shown by how excited I got as he talked about table top gaming which is not one of my fandoms but I was excited because he was excited and the excitement was contagious. So a) Will Wheaton Great b) I know kinda want to play table top board games

Next Panel I went to was CBLDF (Comic Book League Defence Fund), State of Censorship 2017 which was interesting but also depressing. I also now have a few new comics to read since when a comic is censored I have a gut reaction I must read it. I find often the best graphic novels and comics are those which have been banned somewhere.

  • This One Summer by Mariko Tamaki
  • Drama by Raina Telgemeier
  • Mangaman by Barry Lyga

I know there were more but I lost the notebook I was taking notes in somewhere at the con. Oh well

Next was IDW Entertainment Spotlight On: Wynonna Earp which was a fun panel with cast and crew from the show. It was odd when they talked lovingly about the fans since I have been a fan a week as of yesterday. I binged all 13 epasoid this past weekend. I did like one fan who said they were drawn in by a friend who said it was "A wild west Grown up buffy"

Then it was a panel on contemporary storytelling which was ok but I was hoping there would be more writing suggestions and tips and instead it was more this is what I am working on, and this is why it was dark.

And finally, it was a mini interview/panel with Will Wheaton. Which I enjoyed

Another Highlight is the fact that one of my "Best of Writers, Best of Dreamers" Robbie Thompson is at C2E2.




Also this year there are fewer groups handing out books but I found the ones I got were more interesting than in past years.

Today's Total: 4 Books 

Cover price $73 + the fourth book which was a collection of short stories which I can't find online to find a value for :)

So I have already made back what I paid for my badge for the weekend.

It was funny when I was heading home since I was tired and I was like well that was good and then remembering I still have 2 days to go. :) 

Tomorrow I will review Day 2



(1) "Are you Aron Burr Sir?" is a line from the musical Hamilton. 
(2) I don't know who One Punch Man is but it was a silly photo so I went with it

Sunday, February 19, 2017

The Columnist by David Auburn


This past week has been Chicago Theater Week. I have gotten to a few events and have been reminded that I am able to both find the time and the resources to see more theater than I do. As part of this new passion for seeing theater; I went to see The Columnist by David Auburn at the American Blues Theater. It was an amazing production and I got to go with a friend who challenged me to explain the time frame of the play.

As I later wrote:
The Columnist by David Auburn
(Author of the Play Proof)
And I’m Trying to explain Vietnam To a friend
And I’m Trying to explain the Cold War To a friend
And I’m Trying to explain the 60’s To a friend

I should be more articulate
Courses in this have been taken by me
But how do you explain Why Vietnam
But how do you explain Why Anti-Communist
But how do you explain Why we walked chin deep into a mucky, mucky mess

Where is the fine line between
A world of back room gentlemen (and gentlewomen) agreements
A world where every single personal detail is run through the Mud

The press is fundamental
The press is amazing
The press is important

There are details that matter
There are details which are simply used to cut and bleed
Where is the fine line between

What do we do when there are Multiple truths
We are winning, We are losing, 
We are both at the same time

What is truth?
Why is the role of the press?
What does it mean to be an American?

What do you do when you are picked up by the tornado
And everything is changing?

My heart goes out to those who face the changes with fear and hate
But this world is changing
We are reviving the 60’s
Everything is changing

I did not live in the 60's or 70's but I see parallels to today. The past decade or so has been full of positive social upheavals in this country. And the population is falling into Us vs Them camps. The walls have fallen down: 

Camp A: Let's color completely outside the lines and make beautiful art.
Camp B: Let's rebuild the walls and paint them in neutral tones and believe with all our hearts the walls never feel down in the first place

But it has always been easier to find a monster under the bed to blame for our failures and problems. It is easier to focus on the ever-changing "Other" than to do the much-needed self-reflection. 

So the people march in the streets, so the students stand up for something greater themselves, so the press tells the story. It has never been the people vs the government vs the press. It never will be that simple. Celebrate the press. Celebrate the arts. Think and ponder and dream.