Thursday, September 29, 2022

Review Of IVP 2022 Festival

 

I was able to attend all 6 readings that were part of IVP 2022. 
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IVP brings global voices to Chicago stages through commissions, translations and production. We collaborate with consulates, cultural partners and universities throughout the Chicagoland area and collaborate with national and international theatres to promote global playwrights at the national level. A global city demands global art.

Summary:

In present-day Warsaw, Blanca hears the legend of the ghetto cartographer. According to that legend, an old cartographer was determined, while everything was dying around him, to draw the map of that world in danger; but since his legs no longer supported him, since he couldn't look for the data he needed, it was a girl who went out to look for them for him. Blanca will take the legend for truth and she will launch herself, obsessively, in search of the old map and, without knowing it, in search of herself. The cartographer is a work -a map- about that search and about that legend.

My Review:

This was a play where I liked the concept more than the execution. Personally I got lost in the wibbly wobbly time travel that occurred. I also had trouble connecting to Blanca's story and the trauma she experienced felt like an after thought. I will note that the reading was very long (over 2 hours which is long for a stage reading) and the room was very cold so I may not have been in the right mindset to be able to follow and enjoy the reading.

Summary:

From the critically acclaimed Palestinian writer Ahmed Masoud, who was born and raised in Gaza. Hajja Souad, an 80-year old Palestinian woman living on the besieged Gaza Strip, knows about business. She has survived decades of wars and oppression through making shrouds for the dead. A compelling black comedy, The Shroud Maker delves deep into the intimate life of ordinary Palestinians to weave a highly distinctive path through Palestine’s turbulent past and present. Loosely based on a real-life character still living in Gaza, this one-woman comedy weaves comic fantasy and satire with true stories told first hand to the writer and offers a vivid portrait of Palestinian life in Gaza underscored with humor.

My Review:

I really enjoyed this moving and meaningful comedy. The suffering of the Palestinians, the day to day lives of the Palestinians, and the hopefulness of the Palestinians despite it all are not typically expressed nearly enough. This was an important play. In addition this play had been performed before in England which meant that it felt more polished than some of the other readings. 

Summary:

Welcome to Life! Fasten your seatbelts, it's gonna be a bumpy ride! Living is scary, will we be okay in the end?

My Review:

This was a fun comedy looking at our interactions with anxiety and how both anxiety challenges us and makes us better people. 

Summary:

When a residential house is engulfed in flames five people are killed, three children and two women. The perpetrators are youths from the neighbourhood. The name of the small town is soon known nationwide thanks to a flurry of media reports. But the nation’s attention soon turns elsewhere to other, more pressing issues. Yet for the survivors and victims of the arson attack that fateful night will never end. The mother who leapt from a window cradling her child trying to protect the baby with her own body tells her story over and over, detailing the moment of her death. The mother of one of the perpetrators talks about the silence that enveloped her home, of her inkling that something had happened, of her doubts about her son’s guilt. A female relative who survived the fire sees the flames every day, feels the heat and smells the smoke. Each person is trapped in their memory and pain yet searches for a way to talk about what happened, yearns to meet other people and find a way to communicate.

My Review:

I am not sure how I feel about this reading. I liked some of the exploration of what it means to die for different people but had trouble following who was which character which meant it was harder for me to connect to the struggles of the characters. This was a play where we were told in the talk back that it did not have any punctuation which probably added to my struggle to feel like it was a cohesive whole. 

Summary:

Three voices from the War in Ukraine meld together chronicling thoughts, emotions, and horror from the war in Ukraine as it begins and changes the world. Call Them By Their Names by Tetyan Kitsenko, The Peed Upon Armored Personnel Carrier by Oskana Gritsenko, and A Dictionary of Emotions in a Time of War by Elena Astasyeva immediately transport us to the moments that changed their world and ours in an instant and presage a rupture that will take generations to heal.

My Review:

This was an fascinating combination of 3 works by Ukrainians about the current Russian invasion. It was filled with hope, resilience, and strength. 

Summary:

March of 2020, Bergamo, the onset of the COVID-19 pandemic. Francesca, a former model and her husband, Luca, a television host, have invited some neighbours to an illegal dinner. This innocent social evening gradually turns into a quarrel over the pandemic, Italy, European values, social solidarity, and political and ideological views in the crisis situation.

My Review:

I first want to say I had an exam to go to afterwards so my mind was not totally focused on the play. I also only had the above summary and know I did not understand many of the references that were being made which made the reading feel long. 

As I looked up more info I found this expanded summary which would have been useful to know beforehand. 

The play is built on structures drawn from commedia dell’arte: the protagonists come from various regions of Italy and personify the stereotypical attributes associated with dell’arte characters, yet the conflict rests on twenty-first-century divisions. Venetian wealth and Sicilian poverty, the refugee crisis in Lampedusa, immigrant labour, the breakdown of the health system during the pandemic, the collapse of faith in European solidarity—these are only some of the subjects the drama raises. The story of the murder of Pier Paolo Pasolini in 1975 hovers over everything like a sinister omen—this was a homophobic and political crime that smacked of wild capitalism and the fascist history of Italy and Europe.

Yet two characters seem to belong to another world entirely. These are Salvatore, the equivalent of the dell’arte Dottore and his helper, Chiara, a young girl, a character who seems to be a mix of Arlecchino and perhaps an Italian Lisbeth Salander. It is they who ultimately take one of the guests into the underworld. Who are they? Etruscan gods? Messengers of Hades? A delirious dream of Claudia, who turns out to be a doctor in a Covid unit?

The play makes a wide range of references to Italian, European, and world culture. We encounter Pier Paolo Pasolini, Boccaccio, Petrarch, Tarkovsky, Tarantino, even the opening words of the Comendatore from Mozart’s Don Giovanni and allusions to the Aeneid. The action is broken up by intermezzi—some take the form of television shows, others resemble musicals. There is also a grotesque parody of Wheel of Fortune, ending with the prize of a luxury coffin, and the performance of a medieval song that is an ode to Pluto, lord of the underworld.

In the finale the violinist dies, the bourgeoisie are ridiculed, the helpless doctors await international aid, and Chiara performs her contemporary song, which might be read as the triumph of death.

Comedy mixes with tragedy, mythology with the global problems of the twenty-first century. The Italian context turns out to be merely a costume for the challenges standing before most of the societies of the West.

Wednesday, September 21, 2022

Finding Joy Where You Are

 
As part of the month of Elul I have been getting daily prompts via The Jewish Studio Project.

One recent one that stood out to me went in part:

Marie Kondo became famous a few years back asking people to pick up their belongings in order to determine if they sparked joy. The question that I ask when I pick up a piece of junk is a little bit more open-ended, “could you foresee any circumstances in which using these objects would be enjoyable?” The best part is that the answer is almost always, yes.

We are surrounded by stuff. Instead of hating on it and hauling it off so that, inevitably, we can buy more stuff, what if we just made use of it. I am all for letting go of what we no longer need, but I’m also equally in favor of recognizing how much we already have and how much joy can be derived from making use of it.

Tonight, in an act of radical, spiritual hoarding before the new year begins, I invite you to make a list of things that you already have and aren’t using that you could find a way to derive pleasure from in the year to come. Maybe it’s the items that are pouring out from your arts and crafts cabinet, maybe it’s the snowshoes in the basement, maybe it’s an established friendship that you’ve been neglecting, or maybe it’s just the liquid aminos that could be used to make your famous gluten-free fried rice.

I really like the idea of finding joy where we are. Feels very Hob Gadling. Feels very love life no matter what it sends your way. I know I have lots of items around my home that I should actually use or put another way drink the tea, use the lotion, create with the art supplies. I really enjoy this idea of instead of focusing on letting go we focus more on using what we have. What we have physically, what we have emotionally, what we have spirituality, and what we have creatively. 

9/20/22 a 

Elul journal prompt which goes in part
“I invite you to make a list of things that you
already have and aren’t using that you could
find a way to derive pleasure from in the year
to come” feels meaningful right now, feels like
One way to live life more like Hob Gadling

We all have so many things already
Physical things, Mental things, Emotional things
We all have so many things already
Spiritual things, Dream things, Creative things
We all have so many things already
Neurodivergent things, Wondrous Amazing things
We all have so many things already

How can we all find joy in each of these things?
How can we all find joy in life itself? The universe?
How can we all find joy in those we see everyday
And those who we only see once every 100 years?
How can we all find joy in each of these things?
How can we all find joy in each of these things?

Monday, September 19, 2022

Celebrate Banned Books Week

 

This is Banned Books Week when we celebrate books that have been banned and we focus on the importance of reading banned books. The theme of this year's event is “Books Unite Us. Censorship Divides Us.”

Banned Books Week is an annual event celebrating the freedom to read. Banned Books Week was launched in 1982 in response to a sudden surge in the number of challenges to books in schools, bookstores and libraries. Typically held during the last week of September, it highlights the value of free and open access to information. Banned Books Week brings together the entire book community — librarians, booksellers, publishers, journalists, teachers, and readers of all types — in shared support of the freedom to seek and to express ideas, even those some consider unorthodox or unpopular. (via bannedbooksweek.org)

So what banned books are you going to read this week? If you need inspiration here is collection of banned book lists compiled by The Children 's Book Council. No matter what type of stories you enjoy you will be able to find a book that has been banned. 

Book Lists: Children’s, Middle Grade, and Young Adult

Frequently Challenged Children’s Books & Frequently Challenged Young Adult Books — ALA: Banned & Challenged Books
Banned Comics — Comic Book Legal Defense Fund (CBLDF)
The Ultimate List of Banned Books — Scholastic
Banned & Challenged Books Every Tween and Teen Should Read — Brightly
Banned and Challenged Picture Books — Edmonton Public Library (EPL)
16 Banned Books to Read Before 12th Grade — We Are Teachers
28 Banned Books That Every Kid Needs to Read — Tiny Beans
Banned or Challenged Books, Grades Pre-K–4 — TeacherVision
NCAC, A Kids Co., Release New Kids Book About Banned Books — National Coalition Against Censorship (NCAC)

Friday, September 16, 2022

Practicing Seeing "No" As A Success

 

I have been doing a good amount of virtual volunteering with nonprofits this year. The site I use has two main types of opportunities:
  • 1 hour phone calls where a nonprofit gets to pick my brain 
  • Long term projects that vary in length and last from weeks to months depending on the project

I have been doing a bunch of the phone calls around how to work with social media. 
  • What a good post looks like
  • Helping brainstorm content
  • Basic strategy (getting them to think about what they hope to achieve using social media etc.)

Today I had another call but clearly they were looking for something beyond the scope of an hour call. While they posted asking for help with "standard steps/recipe for how, in a very basic approach, to be more strategic and thoughtful about our approach to social media." 
  • They already had content
  • They knew their audience
  • They knew what they wanted to use social media for
  • They already were using a social media calendar 
  • They already had social media strategy
  • They wanted to go even deeper over 3-4 meetings over the next month. 

I talked with them, explained how what they wanted was outside the scope of the one hour calls and outside my specialty and that they should post again under long term projects and how to tweak their ask so they match with a better fit. 

The person said they were happy I was upfront and said this was not a good fit BUT I still found myself feeling like a failure because I had to say No. It took some consideration before I decided that even though I had to say No, I did prep for and complete the call so I am counting it as a call I have done this year. 

And while how successful the call was depends on how you look at it in the end I did point them in the direction they would need to go in order to get the volunteer help they want. But this highlighted how much I have to practice seeing saying no as a success. I find it way to easy to fall into the pattern where saying no means I failed.



Wednesday, September 14, 2022

Don't Police Female Identified Bodies In The Name Of Health


There has been a recent recommendation in the news that "Primary care doctors are advised to talk to women between 40 to 60 who have a normal or overweight body mass index, or BMI, about maintaining their weight or limiting it to prevent obesity." 

This recommendation bugs me for a whole host of reasons:
  • This recommendation is unnecessarily gendered. If this was really about health and not just policing female identified bodies the recommendation would be for all people not just women.
  • This recommendation minimizing female identified bodies' agency. This recommendation suggests that women are not aware of their own bodies and have no idea of their own weight.
  • This recommendation is for all female identified bodies disregarding if the person is actually considered overweight or is in anyway actually suffering from a health issue. 
  • This recommendation is based on BMI which has been shown to be problematic for a long time. BMI is not an all encompassing indicator of health. While it can be useful in a big picture way there is a lot of variability in body composition. 
  • This recommendation makes it even more likely that doctors will be judgmental of anyone who happens to have a different body shape. 

Personal example of why all this matters:

Last fall I went to a new doctor for an annual physical because I had different insurance. 

I had gained a few pounds between about 9 months before COVID (and before I left a job where I was on my feet for 8 hours a day to now being a freelance writer which involves more sitting) to last fall and my BMI now was considered overweight. 

While I had not gotten to a primary care doctor in a few years I had gotten to several health clinics over the 3-6 months before my new primary care doctor's visit. These clinics had included blood pressure, full cholesterol panels, fasting blood sugar, A1C etc. which all came back fine so I had a basic understanding of where I was health wise. I also brought all this data to the new doctor for their reference.

Instead of actually listening to me the doctor started diagnosing me with a wide range of issues right off the bat, which she even listed in my chart, everything from hormonal imbalances (which she even said what she was seeing was not actually in line with but was the only possible reason I had gained any weight during COVID), to calling in prescriptions to the local pharmacy I would need to take. 

This was all before she did any blood work of her own and while totally dismissing all the other results because she did not think those tests were as good as her test. (Again I can understand some tests might be more sensitive than others so doing your own makes sense, having blood work done was not an issue for me, but assuming my numbers would be horrible and tell me thus despite the others being fine feels like a leap) 

This was also without me having any symptoms so I was not sure why she was so determined that I was sick. In the moment I was overwhelmed at being diagnosed with various lifelong conditions but after both all my blood work came back fine and some time had passed I realized part of the doctor's sureness I had tons of aliments was probably because my BMI was slightly high. 

This whole situation taught me that doctors can end up being intentionally or not, very judgmental when it comes to weight and health especially in women. I was seen as a woman with slightly high BMI and therefore seen as someone clearly with a whole host of health issues without having to check if I actually had those health issues. 

And this all meant I felt even less willing to ever go back and see a doctor again for a physical (I found someone new who hopefully will be better this year.) This is why the recommendation that all women's weight be talked about by doctors feels like it could both go wrong and could keep women away from the doctor's even if they do have health issues because they don't want to deal with the judgment. 

Monday, September 12, 2022

Legacy, What is a legacy?

 

Legacy, What is a legacy
It's planting seeds in a garden you never get to see
I wrote some notes at the beginning of a song someone will sing for me
(Great Britain), you great unfinished symphony, you sent for me

(Hamilton the Musical)

Last week a certain celebrity ruler (The Queen Of England) passed away and many are asking what does living a good life mean? While I have no answers here are some questions to consider. (And yes I bet the actual answers are probably blowing in the wind somewhere) 

  • Is it whether you chose your path? Or your path was forced on you?
  • Is it being an institution that lived a long life? Or changing institutions from the inside out?
  • Is it based on your best days? Or your worst days?
  • Is it based on when you spoke up? Or when you remained silent?
  • Is it based on how you treated other people? Or how others treated you?
  • Is it in hugs that you gave? Or encouragement you spoke?
  • Is it being a calm presence? Or is it taking action?
  • Is it fulfilling a deep purpose? Or simply doing the job you have?
  • It is whether you made a difference? Or whether people will miss you?
  • How much are we responsible for the faults of the institutions we lead?
No one life will be seen the same way by everyone. Some will think someone was wonderful and wise where as others will think they were the opposite. But we should ask ourselves these questions before we are no longer here so that we can choose what it means to have a good life for us. 

And when you're gone, who remembers your name?
Who keeps your flame?
Who tells your story?
Who tells your story?
Who tells your story?

(Hamilton the Musical)


Saturday, September 10, 2022

World Suicide Prevention Day


World Suicide Prevention Day is an awareness day observed on 10 September every year, in order to provide worldwide commitment and action to prevent suicides, with various activities around the world since 2003.

Around 700,000 people die by suicide every year, with over 75% of suicides occurring in low-and-middle-income countries. Suicide is a global concern and a serious public health issue in every country; however suicides are preventable. By raising awareness, reducing the stigma around suicide and encouraging well informed action, we can reduce instances of suicide around the world.
 

Picture in PDF form so you can actually read it


Short Film: Step Closer (2 min)



Where Wentworth discusses an suicide attempt at the age of 15



Where Wentworth discusses an suicide attempt as a freshmen in college.

Friday, September 9, 2022

Some September Activities

 

Each summer for the past few years I make a list of all the live events I go to, color coded by type of activity (festivals, art, music, ....) This summer I got to 100+ events. This year I have decided to try my hand at creating a fall list in a similar style. 

While I often share the fun activities I am doing around Chicago after the fact today I am sharing some of the fun I will be having this month so others could join me if they are so inclined. Note: I will probably circle back to some of these events in future blog posts.  

Tonight (Fri 9/9) 


The walk is comprised of approximately 22 locations with special events throughout River North, featuring 31 artists and 20 designer vignettes.

This weekend (Sat 9/10-9/11) 


Printers Row Lit Fest, the largest free outdoor literary showcase in the Midwest, returns to Printers Row


The Lakeview East Festival of the Arts showcases more than 150 juried artists featuring paintings, sculpture, photography, furniture, jewelry and more.

Mondays/Wednesdays for the next 3 weeks


The International Voices Project is the largest event of its kind in the country and introduces Chicago audiences to some of the most exciting voices on the international theater scene.



Wednesday, September 7, 2022

A Gentle Vision Of What Could Be

 

As I posted on Goodreads: This was a wonderful little book which reminds you to slow down and ponder questions such as what do we need as individuals and communities, what other and better ways could we structure our society, as well as wisdom such as "You're don't have to earn rest or comfort. You're allowed to just be" while also holding space for the characters to say "But I don't feel like it is true, for me. I feel like it's true for everyone else but not me.

For example, in this story instead of a traditional currency there are "Pebs" (that represent that someone got something of value from you vs. used in direct trade, in some ways they are community level thank you notes) that are more an indication of how well someone is doing within community instead of a punitive means to keeps people from having their basic needs met.

“You’re saying that instead of a system of currency that tracks individual trade, you have one that facilitates exchange through the community. Because … all exchange benefits the community as a whole?” (p34-35)

"Everybody has a negative balance from time to time, for lots of reasons. That's fine. That's part of the ebb and flow. But if someone had a huge negative ... well, that says they need help. Maybe they're sick. Or stuck. Maybe they've got something going on at home. Or maybe it's just one of those times where they need other people to carry them for a while. That's okay everybody ends up there sometimes. If I saw a friends balance and it was way in the red, I'd make a point in checking in (p36)

I love the idea that there is a system that creates natural check-ins with your friends and neighbors. I know there are times where I would be in the red for "Pebs" and it would be a wonderful universe if in those cases someone knew to check-in since those moments are easy to get lost in. 

I also love the honesty of the characters towards the end of the story.

"Do you remember what you said when we were there, about how nothing needs a purpose? How all living things are allowed to just exist and we don't have to do more than that?

Mosscap nodded. "I do, yes."

Dex press their lips together. "That's the heart of my faith, Mosscap. That is what I am saying to everyone who comes to my table. I say it out loud, all the f*cking time. You don't have to have a reason to be tired. You don't have to earn rest or comfort. You're allowed to just be. I say the that wherever I go." They threw a hand towards their wagon its wooden sides emblazoned with Summer bear. "It's painted on the side of my home! But I don't feel like it's true, for me. I feel like it's true for everyone else but not for me. I feel like I have to do more than that. Like I have to have a responsibility to do more than that." (p140-141)

I find I have more than once or twice felt like Dex does where I know how to comfort. listen to, be there for someone else but struggle with others comforting, listening to, to being there for me or being those things for myself. (Like what Wentworth Miller talked about when talking about how to talk to yourself, though in this case it is less how I talk to myself and more how I act with myself)

There is something both comforting and challenging about having others have those same feelings especially when those others live in a functional utopia. 

Monday, September 5, 2022

Reflecting On Resting From Labor

What does it mean to rest from our Labor?
What could this mean as we celebrate Labor Day Weekend?
Here is a collection of ways to rest that I found shared on Facebook.

In what ways do you need rest right now?
In what ways will you need rest this fall?
In what ways will you need rest into the future?












Friday, September 2, 2022

Reflecting On Our Collective Labor


It is Labor Day Weekend. Labor Day pays tribute to the contributions and achievements of American workers and is traditionally observed on the first Monday in September. It was created by the labor movement in the late 19th century and became a federal holiday in 1894.

Today is a good day to reflect on a whole host of questions:

  1. What is considered labor?
  2. What labor do we monetary compensate for?
  3. Why do we value some labor over others?
  4. How can someone work and still not afford basic needs?
  5. What is meaningful labor?
  6. How does passion connect to labor?
  7. How can we make all our workplaces more assessable?
  8. How can we cultivating mental health at work? 
  9. How can we cultivate or neurodiversity at work?
  10. What is the relationship between our work, our labor, and our lives?
Recently there has been an interesting conversation around what some call "quietly quitting":

 

This is a reminder that what we "should" do with our labor and time and energy is still in flux. Different parties have a different view of how much we each should should go above and beyond in our work, in our communities, in our lives. 

For many us whenever we take a moment to pause and focus on our own mental health etc. it feels like we are quiet quitting our lives but if we do not take a moment to pause we will be unable to continue on and be our best and boldest selves. 

Today is a day to celebrate the end of summer, a day to celebrate labor in all its forms, and a day to reflect on the meaning of labor and work and imagine systems that allow us all to thrive instead of feeling overwhelmed and stuck.

Thursday, September 1, 2022

Sandman Reflections (Part 4): Do Not Use Your Dreams To Harm

I just need time to think about what to do.

What is there to think about? I'm a goddess. A daughter of Zeus. I am not a possession to be kept and used and traded. You must set me free. You have only to say the words.

I will. I promise. But, um... Do you think you could help me first? Inspire me? Just for one book, and then I will let you go. I swear I will.

Calliope and Richard Madoc In Ep 11 Calliope Sandman


This is the last in a series of posts where I will be exploring some of the themes of Sandman. I am focusing on the Netflix series since I read the comics long enough ago I would not be able to tell the differences lol.

While I am more focused on ideas/themes there will be references that might be considered spoilers. So if you have not seen the show yet watch it on Netflix (Please watch so we have a better chance of getting a season 2)

Do Not Use Your Dreams To Harm
By Dreaming Ace

We shall all dream
We shall all dream dreams
We shall all dream of new tomorrows

But that does not mean 
We are allowed to harm others
In our quest for those dreams

We can not lock up others and their dreams
We can not put our dreams above all humanity
We can not use our dreams to harm

No one wants to be imprisoned
No one wants to be harmed
No one wants to hurt

Asking nicely we shall find that
Many of our Dreams are possible
But But But

If those dreams come at the cost of harming others
We will find that those dreams turn into nightmares in the end
Our dreams should be for creating a better world
Not a worst and darker and more broken world

So far in this series I have covered letting our dreams free, mourning broken dreams, what happens after the quest, asking how we can love life like Hob Gadling, and now to finish off a reminder that we need to be careful of what we dream. Dreams are very powerful and can truly change the world around us but that also means that dreams can be used to harm others. All too often we expect others to serve our dreams and we don't take it well if they say no. 

But dreams that are not freely given are really just nightmares. When we rip our dreams out of the lives of others it never goes well. It is important that we remember that when dreaming our dreams. Are we imagining something better for us all or are we dreaming by locking goddesses in our basement and making them do our bidding?

Calliope is able to dream a better future even after being locked up for decades because her dreams are rooted in something good, something kind, something wise. What are our dreams rooted in?

Snippets of conversations between Dream and Calliope

What will you do now?

I think what I must do is to try to make sure that this never happens to anyone else ever again. 

How? 

I do not know. By inspiring humanity to want better for themselves and each other. By rewriting the laws by which I was held. Laws that were written long ago in which my sisters and I had no say. 

---

I think you should release the mortal now. He has set me free, and without forgiveness, wounds will never heal. 

You would forgive him for what he's done? 

I will not forgive what he has done, but I must forgive the man. Not for him. For me. Will you free him? 

If that is what you wish... it shall be done.