Tuesday, April 30, 2024
A "Gentle, Gentle" Transitioning From April To May
Being Cautious About Unintentional Consequences Is Always Wise
The Doctor’s trusty sonic screwdriver has been redesigned to resemble a remote control or a flip phone because Davies was worried that the old Sonic looked too much like a gun, potentially encouraging kids to pretend to shoot at one another.
Many of the comments were some flavor of that is silly to worry about or what is Davies thinking but as I posted:
While I don't think there was any need to change the design, as an American fan of Doctor Who I recognize that being on Disney means more Americans will get to see Doctor Who and here in America we have had too many tragedies where people were killed because their hairbrush, candy bar, wallet, or obviously fake nerf gun were confused with real guns, and that is not even taking in account news stories like today a 3 year old who shot themselves in the foot with their parents gun. So while not needed I am glad Russell T Davies is thinking about the completely unintentional possible consequences of Doctor Who reaching more people.
Do I think the classic sonic design was an issue? Probably Not
Do I think there is any harm in changing the design? Nope
Do I think anyone can be too careful when it comes to media and guns? No.
Lessons From The News: Listen To People
Today, I happened to see a post referencing the whole social media phenomenon of how, when asked, many women say they would rather unexpectedly meet a bear in the woods than unexpectedly meet a man in the woods. There has been a small but vocal segment of male-identified individuals who have taken this as a personal besmirchment and speak as though this view means women hate men.
This reminds me of a few years ago, when our mayor asked where Chicagoans wanted budget cuts made. There was a survey, and a list was provided. Across all the wards, there was consensus that the police budget should be cut. The mayor at the time was upset that Chicagoans picked this choice from the list that the mayor had provided for the survey. In both cases, groups were given a choice and then criticized for the choice they made.
This tendency towards not listening, disagreeing when groups make a choice, or gaslighting communities by saying they don't mean what they said is very problematic and has real-life repercussions. For example, many in the autistic community have spoken up about how harmful ABA (Applied Behavioral Analysis) and the groups that support its use are.
Monday, April 29, 2024
15 Years of Fantasy: C2E2 2024
I had a good time overall, but today is going to be a "gentle, gentle" day as I recover from so much socialization and walking. I'm both physically and socially tired, LOL.
Side Quest: Figurine Painting
Friday started with me painting a free Loki figurine via Side Quest. I really like how it came out.
The figurine was from the Zombie Marvel box, but other than Loki being shirtless and looking like he is trying to be Poseidon, I'm not sure why it was labeled a Zombie.
I did paint Loki in his Jotun form since there was blue paint but no skin color paint LOL.
Panel: "The Hero Doesn't Always Journey"
The first panel I went to looked at how stories can be structured around something other than the hero's journey. It looked at the benefits and negatives of using formal story structures and stories that break conventional wisdom.
For example, typically, authors are told that characters should have strong motivations or goals, but this does not actually have to be the case if the characters are in interesting worlds such as The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy or Alice in Wonderland.
I ended up spinning their wheel and getting a light-up collapsible light saber, which will be nice to bring to the DePaul Celebration of Star Wars conference next weekend.
I also got a number of books throughout the weekend via "The Science Fiction Outreach Project.
I then spent some time in the Pride Lounge, coloring, listening to music etc. and won a box of little toys.Panel: Autism in Comic Books
This panel was one of my highlights for C2E2 because, as someone who is autistic, there are not nearly enough panels centered around being autistic and other forms of neurodivergence.
It was a wonderful panel that listed all the characters in comics who are explicitly autistic. I liked the idea that, while some of these portrayals are problematic, they are salvageable.
That the comic portrayals that are problematic (such as portrayals that suggest that being autistic is something that should be "cured") should simply be given over to autistic comic creators so that the problematic portrayals can be corrected.Also, over all, the panel highlighted that we need to flood comics and other media with portrayals of autistic characters because, as we say, "When you have met one autistic person, you have met one autistic person."
The more representation there is out there, the more nuanced portrayals of being autistic can become, which means more problematic representations carry less weight because they are not the "only" representations shared.
So in summary, Dear Comic Creators, please include more autistic characters, please and thank you.
Panel: Artistic Cosplay: Reimaging Character Designs and Bringing them into Reality.
I went to this panel because the one I was planning on going to was filled. I will say that it was interesting to learn a bit more about cosplay competitions.
Panel: IkebanaThis panel was on an ancient type of Japanese flower arrangement.
Ikebana is the centuries-old Japanese art of arranging flowers. The practice, which roughly translates to “making flowers come alive,” uses carefully selected blossoms, greenery and other flora to convey a specific feeling or emotion to an observer – just as a painting or sculpture might.C2E2 PromDay One's capstone was the first ever C2E2 Prom (and I think might have been one of the first "After Dark" event I have actually made it too. Normally I am too tired.
I would say errands would be so much more enjoyable if you saw The Doctor and Ruby Sunday at the bank, or a princess or supervillain at the grocery store.
I also grabbed a pretty dragon egg that is multicolored changing color as you turn it which you will have to trust me on since there is no easy way to show that in a photo.Friday, April 12, 2024
Fantastic, Amazing, Wonderful Libraries
Monday, April 8, 2024
Solar Eclipse 2024
Wednesday, April 3, 2024
Overview of My Personal Wibbly Wobbly Autistic Journey.
Since clearly Wentworth Miller and Captain Cold are a few of my many special interests (I personally like the term special interests and use it, but recognize that some others who are autistic disagree because they think the term carries baggage), when Wentworth stated that he was autistic, I jumped online and took a range of free "autism tests" online.
Because of how literally I was reading the questions and the fact that I had been unknowingly masking for my entire life, I tended not to have enough "points" according to these tests. It is important to point out that many autism tests were written with cisgendered white boys in mind and therefore can be easily misinterpreted by those of us with different identities.
In addition, part of me felt it would be too greedy to have three identities in common with Wentworth (the other two are being part of the LGBTQA+ community and having had struggles with mental health). So while I connected to much of what Wentworth said was his experience of being autistic, I did not think being autistic was an identity that applied to me.
Yes, I know saying I was not autistic because it would mean I had too much in common with my parasocial best friend Wentworth sounds odd. Oh, brains can be very creative sometimes. Or, in the words of Leo McGarry, welcome to my world.
Stage 3: Deep Dive Part 1 (Summer 2021-Today)
While I didn't think I counted as being autistic, it became a special interest. I started by reading as many fanfiction stories with autistic characters or characters who were otherwise neurodivergent as I could. Because when there is a concept, especially an identity, I want more information on, I tend to reach out to my closest friends, aka fanfiction. (Same place I had already been going for wonderful Ace works as well as mental health-focused works.)
Stage 4: Maybe I Really Am Autistic or Neurodivergent (Summer 2022)
I saw a therapist very briefly in the summer of 2022 (for about 3 sessions in total), and at my second appointment, they suggested that I might be autistic. (Full disclosure: in the first session, they suggested that I might have an extremely high IQ, so they probably are not the most reliable LOL)
At this point, I did some more thinking, went, Oh, ok, I guess I really am autistic, and wrote a quick blog post, The Process Of Recontextualizing Myself, at which point my therapist was like, Sounds good, you are all set. You don't need any more therapy.
Note to that therapist: giving someone even an informal diagnosis of neurodivergences should really be the starting point, not the end point of that conversation. Also, that therapist was odd because they didn't like the term therapy, not that they said what term they preferred. I ended up writing a blog post about that too: What Is Therapy?
Stage 5: Deep Dive Part 2 (Summer 2022-Today)
This time on top of fanfiction I also read a bunch of books written by people who are autistic.
Stage 6: Removing Masks/UnGatekeeping Myself (July 2022)
This was a period where I started to think more about how being autistic might have impacted my relationships with other people and communities. Some excerpts from a blog post on the topic are below:
Typically the spaces I have most felt like I belonged in were fictional in nature such as currently with my adorable band of misfits called The Legends Of Tomorrow or Aziraphale or Crowley or Sherlock or ... all who I typically hang out with in fanfiction universes, fanvid universes, or daydream universes.
When it has come to non-fictional communities I think on some deep level that I was not aware of I knew that even if on paper I fit I was still seeing the world differently than others which made me doubt if I really belonged or if I was just trespassing in someone else's community.
I knew parts of myself but I did not have the whole picture for who I was so saw any not understanding the social context of the group as really meaning I was not part of the group or at that I should not have been part of the group in the first place.
Stage 7: #ThreeAvenuesBookshopMagic (November 2022-Today)
In what might sound like unrelated news, in November 2022, a new bookstore opened nearby. Three Avenues Bookshop is a wonderful family-owned bookstore that centers disabled and neurodivergent voices in addition to queer and BIPOC voices.
While, for example, mental health was a common topic in my social circles, so I knew lots of people who also had mental health challenges, I did not personally know as many people who were autistic or were otherwise neurodivergent. (I mean, I love Wentworth, but I don't actually know him outside my imagination.) In addition, I had imposter syndrome because I knew it was unlikely I would ever get a formal diagnosis for cost and other reasons.
Honestly, how I remember it, it was sometime during disability awareness month in spring 2023, and they had a wonderful display of books on disability, including neurodivergence. I complimented them for having a section that included autistic voices, and we got to talking.
Three Avenues was also probably one of the first spaces where I felt like I could honestly claim my autistic identity in a meaningful way. Like I was not trespassing on someone else's holy ground. In addition Three Avenues is wonderful because they fully support self-identification understanding the various hurdles to formal diagnoses. I never felt like I had to have proof of my identity.
Stage 8: Deep Dive Part 3 (Summer 2023)
When I went home during the summer of 2023 I was able to read several of my report cards from preschool and elementary school. These were very insightful and had language that showed I have always been autistic even though they did not use that word. This was important so I knew I was fundamentally autistic and I was not just mirroring others who were.
Stage 9: Integrating the Past/Moving Into the Future (Present)
So at this point, I am comfortable saying I am autistic and have integrated that into my life, but I am still working on how to take that information and be able to thrive, not just survive. I also think I am still working through autistic burnout, which makes some long-term planning more challenging.
Tuesday, April 2, 2024
Autism Awareness 101: What To Avoid
Today is World Autism Awareness Day. The challenge is that if you do a quick Google search, you will most likely come across outdated and problematic information about autism.
Note: Like almost everything that has to do with autism, what is considered problematic or outdated will depend on the individual. Someone who is autistic can choose whatever language, symbols, and concepts work for them.
While ABA is considered the “gold standard” of care for autistic people in the United States and many other countries globally, many people feel that ABA is abusive and harmful. For example, ABA is related to gay conversion therapy and teaches children to stop their self-regulating behaviors. While in ABA, children are not allowed to say “no” or refuse any part of the program, which raises concerns about the importance of teaching children consent. In addition, studies show an increased rate of PTSD in autistics that have been involved in ABA.
Autism Speaks
Sadly, "Autism Speaks" is probably the best-known autism organization based in the United States, but it is also very problematic. Historically, it has been very fear-based and very cure-based (trying to cure autism makes about as much sense as saying you want to cure tallness because if you are tall, you might hit your head more often). Today, it is still problematic in its support of ABA (see above) and not centering the voices of those who are autistic but instead centering the parents of those who are autistic. "Autism Speaks" is known for speaking over the voices of those who are autistic.
Puzzle Piece:
The puzzle piece has a history of being associated with ableist groups claiming to act for the benefit of autistic people. The biggest problem with the puzzle piece logo is that it implies that there is something missing and that autistic people are somehow incomplete. Another problem with the puzzle piece is how infantilizing it is. Puzzles are toys associated with children. Although adults also enjoy them and should be able to, it’s unhelpful to use childish imagery for autism. Autistic people are already infantilized enough, and a common complaint of autistic adults is that we are treated like children.